My biggest challenge has always been feeling disappointed for not being where I want to be. To me that means having a successful business, a title, a number of clients, being well known. This often brought me despair and feelings of inadequacy. This still happens, don't get me wrong. Wow, well what a waste of time and energy. This often lead me to wishful thinking and being unproductive. I would avoid the work, and instead go for something easy like hang out and lounge
The other day I caught myself bringing up a useless topic to my friend. It was brought up only because I wanted to start a conversation. I noticed that I did it because I liked the rush, the drama that followed. It's no doubt that our ego is always on the hunt for a problem, and if there's none at hand, it'll create one.
The topic was in regards a date I went on. I didn't care whether I went on a second date or not because I wasn't attracted to the person. However, I